I'm sooo angry this afternoon. I think it's because I feel I'm surrounded by incompletion:
* Physical: My study is full of boxes, unsorted piles of bedding and things to sell, then there's the hallway, and the garage to tidy, plus clothes to put away etc, etc.
* Actions: I've got various DIY jobs to do (hanging up pictures, fixing toilet seats etc, etc)
* Paperwork: I've been ignoring my growing pile of letters for too long. My intray can't hold any more!
* Projects: I've got a list of personal projects I want to do (root my Android phone, write an app to investigate what takes up phone memory, etc)
* Misc: I've got a long list of todo items on my phone, some coved above, but others just ongoing stuff (collect relaxing music, buy a roofrack, pick up referral from GP etc, etc)
* Life: I've also got to be a good husband and Dad, take the kids out, play with them, sort out the finances, etc
Getting a handle on everything that has to be done is daunting, and intimidating. I'm sure everyone has a similar list, but having anxiety, depression and spasms due to Tourettes for the past 2 years has taken it's toll. I'm trying to put some energy into sorting out my life but I'm struggling.
Sunday, 15 May 2011
Goals
Goals have long eluded me. I've tried thinking about setting '5yr' or '10yr', or even 'next month' goals, but I never know what to put. How will I know if that's the right goal? If it's achievable? Or if it'll make me happy? Planning ones life isn't easy.
But I came up with an idea last night - before one can set a heading, one needs to know where one is. And this applies to goals as with anything else.
So, how about I write down where I am right now in the key areas of my life (relationship, work, money, housework etc)? I know that if I stay on my current course, that's what I'll have next month, in 5yr, 10yr etc.
And if I look at where I will be and I don't like it, then I'll know what my goals are.
But I came up with an idea last night - before one can set a heading, one needs to know where one is. And this applies to goals as with anything else.
So, how about I write down where I am right now in the key areas of my life (relationship, work, money, housework etc)? I know that if I stay on my current course, that's what I'll have next month, in 5yr, 10yr etc.
And if I look at where I will be and I don't like it, then I'll know what my goals are.
Saturday, 14 May 2011
I'm the creator of my life
I just did a 1/2h video on beliefs. And something shifted in me. I'd learnt this stuff at Landmark, but I'd forgotten:
* My beliefs aren't actually real, they're just interpretations of what past events meant. And that means they're not 'true'.
* There's a core 'me' that made these interpretations - I've just forgotten and slipped into thinking I'm those beliefs I made up.
* Once I strip away those beliefs, I'm free and anything is possible.
(Note, I don't necessary agree that all beliefs come from your parents, nor that this bloke has anything revolutionary - it's a rehash of NLP and was covered by Landmark. However for a 1/2h video to really open something up is amazing).
Link: http://www.recreateyourlife.
* My beliefs aren't actually real, they're just interpretations of what past events meant. And that means they're not 'true'.
* There's a core 'me' that made these interpretations - I've just forgotten and slipped into thinking I'm those beliefs I made up.
* Once I strip away those beliefs, I'm free and anything is possible.
(Note, I don't necessary agree that all beliefs come from your parents, nor that this bloke has anything revolutionary - it's a rehash of NLP and was covered by Landmark. However for a 1/2h video to really open something up is amazing).
Link: http://www.recreateyourlife.
Lizzard brain
My brain has an older part, and a newer part. The older part likes to sleep in, procrastinate & laze around. And the newer part often forgets it's in charge, and gets bossed about by the older brain.
But if I say (out loud), "Come on lizzard brain, I'm taking charge and getting up now", then it has to do what I say!
Inspired by http://www.stevepavlina.com/
But if I say (out loud), "Come on lizzard brain, I'm taking charge and getting up now", then it has to do what I say!
Inspired by http://www.stevepavlina.com/
Landmark
I did the Forum, run by Landmark Education, several years ago. It was recommended to me by my now wife, Christine.
I learnt a lot. I had a lot of transformational experiences & I developed a better relationship with my parents out of it.
I had a lot of 'breakthroughs' while doing courses at Landmark, and I should get out my old notes and write up all those transformational moments... but this is more of a 'current' blog, so I won't (for now :).
What I'll say is that I use the 'technology' of describing 'on-it-ness' daily, to get 'off-it' and to reforge links with my Christine:
<It's late, so I might not get this right first time!>
I'm pretending (it's your fault), when really (it's my fault). Although I get to (be right), it's robbing me of (love and affinity). I'm creating the possibility of (anything!)
I learnt a lot. I had a lot of transformational experiences & I developed a better relationship with my parents out of it.
I had a lot of 'breakthroughs' while doing courses at Landmark, and I should get out my old notes and write up all those transformational moments... but this is more of a 'current' blog, so I won't (for now :).
What I'll say is that I use the 'technology' of describing 'on-it-ness' daily, to get 'off-it' and to reforge links with my Christine:
<It's late, so I might not get this right first time!>
I'm pretending (it's your fault), when really (it's my fault). Although I get to (be right), it's robbing me of (love and affinity). I'm creating the possibility of (anything!)
A long journey
This blog is about me finding my way though life.
It's about coming to terms with who I am & how I tick.
It's my aim to become a better person. To take control of this person, this life.
To realise my power, my dreams, my potential.
It's been a long journey so far, and I'm sure I'll be on it for the rest of my life.
But I'm starting to see, if not the way out of the forest, tracks in the right direction.
It's about coming to terms with who I am & how I tick.
It's my aim to become a better person. To take control of this person, this life.
To realise my power, my dreams, my potential.
It's been a long journey so far, and I'm sure I'll be on it for the rest of my life.
But I'm starting to see, if not the way out of the forest, tracks in the right direction.
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